Confessions – Twenty Five

I don’t think she knew me but I felt a slight panic in me seeing her there. It is one thing to cheat with someone whose partner you do not know but it is quite another when she is standing right in front of you and you can see her. I doubt though that this woman knew me because we might have lived in the same neighborhood,
I even attended school with her husband and am sure had attended a few social functions together, in her eyes I was just a fly on the wall so I was irrelevant. Who was I really? A lot of these high powered women are so comfortable at the top they hardly ever look down to see who is at the bottom. I think that’s the major difference between men and women in power. Pride as women is what makes you stop paying attention to detail because the world is proper only according to you! Women already hate other women now imagine if you give her the power to do so! With us women I swear the worst lies are the ones we tell ourselves be it how beautiful we are or how important we are downright to how fat we feel even when you just weigh 55kgs! Think about it! You feel fat because you ate a carrot! Men would scrape the bottom of the barrel just to get laid whilst women will tell you how they fought so hard to earn this respect so they can only speak to people of their own class. Have you ever seen how awkward these high and mighty people look awkward at a funeral where they have to actually interact with us normal people? That was her! It is not just high powered women even your normal madam at home would never ever suspect her maid of shagging her husband. Imagine! That dirty village girl took my man! Most madams won’t even divorce him fearing that peers of her social class will shame her for being outplayed by mmane mang mang or sesi mang mang! Ever wondered why your neighbor fired their “good” made for “stealing”. Lol now you know!

I walked past her as I walked to the elevator. I did not even greet her. I know it is disrespectful not to greet your elders but I figured if I did she might have a vague recollection that she has seen me somewhere before. This was dangerous because it is one thing to see me at home, in the neighborhood but it is quite another to bump into me in Sun City, two doors away from her husband. Wasn’t about to be that stupid no matter what this occasion was. You don’t want to be the girl that is always there because it raises eyebrows. If you are a side dish you must always make yourself as invisible as possible so as not to make the wife aware of your presence. I could not help but wonder if he had disposed of the condom we had used though. Even with Thabo, he had a tendency of throwing away the condom itself but never the packaging. He once got a lecture from his mother after he forgot a condom wrapper in her car. High school is fun I tell you! There is always drama and I am sure because we were leaving tomorrow there was bound to be more drama at this “chillaz” I was about to attend. I thought I would feel bad seeing her but somehow in my immature brain (that’s my only defence) now that I had seen her she was just there and didn’t put butter on my bread.

When we got to the room there was alcohol everywhere. I don’t where the boys got it but it was here. Every teen in high school will tell you that if they have ever experimented with alcohol the entry level was and is always Russian Bear. I swear that has to be the nastiest tasting alcohol of the lot. It gives you a massive headache and because girls never have the guts to go into a bottle store alone, the guys buy it and you have no choice but to drink it at a gathering. It is almost like when it comes to drinking it is a rite of passage! It is cheap and gets you there with minimum effort. That’s a simple fact of life. In the room Funeka were Funeka, Nenekazi, Nomsa and two guys I hadn’t met yet, Loskie and Mthobisi from Daveyton. I think he said his surname was Jumbe. People were chatting and sharing stories. It was like so normal, there was no tension whatsoever considering we all knew we will be spinning soon. I have realized something, if a guy suggests let’s play spin the bottle the girls always refuse because they feel set up regardless of whether or not they knew about it. If a girl however brings it up it is the most normal thing. What guys then do they tip of one girl to do it for them! In this case it was the Funeka, the girl from Johannesburg who started the game. Childish antics I tell you but always with intended results. School boys have this fantasy of girls kissing girls. I tell you at every chill session I have attended this is the one thing that always happens drunk or not. This night I kissed all the girls here because that was the major dare of round out. At some points the dares got more daring. I always wonder why parents allow their kids to go for these chill sessions! That’s where your daughters discover what fingering, fondling and sex really is and usually not even with their own boyfriend. I was getting drunk and I noticed that most of the guys were targeting me. It was time to leave. Everyone complained when I said I had to go but I had been in this situation before. With alcohol and such games you get horny really quickly and shit happens very fast. I did not want to have regrets in the morning. I left!

As I walked past Jacks door, it was slightly open. I could hear them shouting at each other. It wasn’t even about condoms but her always accusing him of cheating when clearly he wasn’t according to him. Men and their lies. I guess he was winning whatever the argument was though because at some point I heard her apologize. I still had no idea how or why she was in Sun City.

He smsed me just before I got into bed. I might have been drunk but I could still read.

It read,

“How could you have been so stupid to have left your earrings on the headboard?”

Oh damn what the fuck, instinctively I touched my ears!

But wait,

I was still wearing my earrings!

****The End****

Question: We talking sex today… What is the one thing you absolutely loved about an ex that he or she did during sex and what is the worst thing you hated about an ex that they did during sex? (look at people blushing lol)